Friday was a great day. My little brother was coming to visit from Florida. I felt upbeat, looking forward to a great weekend. THEN Saturday morning I went clothes shopping. I needed some pants. I have not tried on clothes for quite some time but I have been working out really consistently, eating healthy and feeling pretty good, so I anticipated going down a size. Oh boy! (Is this a set up or what?) I get Nike, Adidas, Reebok and the store brand pants and go to the dressing room. First brand does not look so hot, but everyone knows that brand runs small. Second brand looks worse. This is not good. The temperature in the little dressing room is rising, my hair is now getting sweaty, my mood is dropping, the phone is ringing and I only have two more pair to try on. Hmmm, I had already determined that I would not go up a size, I would wait until this size fit, so there was no going back. I can tell this is going no where good but I plunge on and try everything on. They all fit pretty much the same–TIGHT! I put my clothes back on and slink out of the store.
I tearfully climb in my truck and call my husband. Now you do not know the saint, aka Keith, but after 27 years of these phone calls the man is gooooood. He knows what to say but more importantly he knows what NOT to say. I tell him my disappointment and then tell him I am now not sure how I am going to drag myself to the gym and exercise. All my energy is laying on that dressing room floor. He tells me he understands, he says he is sorry, he pumps me up, tells me he loves me, that I am beautiful to him and get moving to the gym. Now I do appreciate this, but I am more concerned with the fact that I do not feel lovely and that I know how to get extreme results extremely quick but I also know that does not last and it is no fun for anyone. Trying to walk out what I tell my clients and I tell myself is hard on a day like Saturday. I want extreme results now!
I went to the gym. I got my music and started to work out. It was not the best workout I have ever had but I did it. I talked to myself and repeated all the things I tell people all day long and know deep down I want to live a balanced life that gives me great results over a period of time that I can live with forever. In my heart I know that if I walk consistently the path that I have started I will get into those pants. It will take me a little longer than my impatient self wants BUT I will be at peace with myself and others. I will enjoy my life. I have a little pity party but then decide that I know I want this for life and I am going to walk it out one day at a time. I am going to practice what I preach.
Do you ever meltdown? How do you cope? What do you tell yourself?
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