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I have had this 4-6″ space between my washer and dryer that has not been really cleaned for a long time (years).  Every time I would go to put clothes in the washer or dryer I looked at that space and felt disgust and shame, the lent and dirt were not pretty, yet, I did not clean it.  Why it was such a huge task I cannot tell you, but yesterday I was a little ahead on the laundry and I looked down there and said, “Today is the day!”  I got an old towel and in less than five minutes had cleaned it. 

Five minutes is all it took and I was feeling good.   I had wasted way to much brain space on feeling inadequate and lazy on a FIVE MINUTE TASK!!   I have some other little tasks lurking in the back of my mind that makes me feel less than adequate and I know that if I just took a little time this huge monkey (procrastination) would be off my back and I would feel so much better about myself.  Soooo, this week, riding on my little success,  I am going to slay a few more dragons and go on vacation feeling good.

1.  Linen closet  (organize and re-fold–20-30 minutes)
2.  Medicine cabinet (organize-check medicine dates–20 minutes)
3.  Kitchen cabinet that has all the stuff I am not sure wher it should go. (get–a box and give most of it away-30 
            minutes)

Do you have something that would make you feel better this week if you conquered?  Just choose one and see how it makes you feel. 

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To blog or not to blog

The last couple weeks have been very stressful for me.  I had realized I was not getting enough sleep and something was going to have to go.  When I examined my priorities, I realized that my blogging at 4:30-5:30 a.m. was the easy thing to give up.  I had been so dedicated to journaling  five days a week and had a struggle letting it go, but knew I must rest to be my best each day.  So I let it go and now I can see it was the right thing. 

Everything you read shows how important it is to sleep and rest your body.  They say if you have to choose between sleep and exercise, choose sleep.   Lack of sleep can inhibit weight loss, increase mood swings (which I don’t need), impair healing and brain functions.

I am choosing to do what is best for my body which I know will make all of life run smoother!  I will blog when I can and let my performance anxiety go!

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Okay, so last night  we made burgers from my best bud, Robin\’s, blog.  I got ground sirloin for the family and 97% fat free ground turkey for me.  We followed Robin’s recipe except we used Swiss cheese.  Wow, they were awesome!  The only mistake I made was I tasted the sirloin burger after I had started eating my turkey burger.  Hmmm, must be totally honest, the sirloin was Much juicier and just all around wonderful.  My burger was great and 140 calories less so I was still happy with my choice.  I also used the Arnold 100 calorie,  100% whole wheat buns which I love.  They also make great breakfast sandwiches!
97% fat free ground turkey

97% fat free ground turkey

 Kayla doesn’t touch raw meat, but she cooked the mushrooms and onions nicely.

onion, mushrooms, garlic filling

onion, mushrooms, garlic filling

 

Sirloin burgers and my turkey burger

Sirloin burgers and my turkey burger

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Yes, we ate on paper plates 😦

 

yum!

yum!

 

I just could not resist one of Lucy Lou!

I just could not resist one of Lucy Lou!

 

Have a great day and try a stuffed burger!

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Last week was a great but  week for me.  It was exhausting, emotionally stretching and physically demanding.  By the weekend I was tired and ready to rest.  I slept good and had a great date with my husband.  What I realized while resting is that I had spread myself a little to thin and my house was in disarray and the clutter was going to take over any minute.  I have noticed when the house is messy I don’t want to go home, I don’t want to cook as much and I want to hide in my bedroom.  At first, I whined to myself, but I am tired and need the rest, and then I realized if I wanted to really rest I had to get things in order.

Friday night I put up clothes and organized my closet.  Wow, Saturday my man, Candace and myself  cleaned downstairs.  My energy was rising just from feeling the order in my small little corner of the world.  Sunday morning I worked in the garage and cleaned our fridge.  I was dripping with sweat and beaming a great big smile, now I could rest!  Truthfully, the cleaning was restful to my spirit, it calmed me.  I felt centered again.

Sunday afternoon I took the girls to the pool and relaxed, watched Keith play tennis, did a few loads of laundry and cooked a  great dinner.

This week I am going to be busy taking Candace to cooking school and working.  I am determined to maintain where I have cleaned and work on another little project (the junk drawers in my kitchen).  My family is happy to help because we all feel better when things are in their place.

It is Monday, I am planning and working success.  Is there anything in your life that is lurking, taking away your peace and focus on living a healthy, balanced life?

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Fabulous Friday

I must tell you that I am really glad today is Friday.  It has been a tough week for me.  I have not been sleeping well, my body is tired, my emotions are high, my thoughts are rapid and I need to rest.  I bought a book yesterday, 365 Positive Ways to Start Your Day.  It seems like a great little book with a good way to get your mind set in the right direction.  Yesterday it said,

The best way to predict your future is to create it.

Peter Drucker

I want to be healthy inside and out so I am trying to eat healthy, rest, exercise, and continue to grow on the inside.  I believe that will make my future brighter and healthier.

What are you doing to create a healthy future?

Have a great weekend! 

 

 

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This past weekend I went to my sister, Susan’s for her son, Eldridge’s graduation.Eldridge, Kayla and Candy at the Grove Park Inn  It was really great, my three brothers and my sister were all together for parts of the weekend.  My little brother, John, got engaged so we also celebrated for him and Denise.

My sister has an amazing deck that we sat at most of the time when we were at the house.  In the mornings, before the kids got up, I sat outside with my brother, Richard and Susan.  We talked about family stuff.  It really helped me to be able to talk with people who knew where I have come from and where I wanted to go.  The best part is that we are all trying to get emotionally healthy.  We are all fighting hard to slay the dragons that have won in the past.  My heart was so overwhelmed with love for them, they filled my love tanks to over flowing. 

I lived in depression for 22 years.  Occasionally, I poked my head out, but for the most part, I was depressed and sad.  I was stuck in my sadness.  When I was with my sibs this weekend we talked about some very sad things BUT the difference was that after we talked about them, laughed a little about them, I cried a little about them, we put the sadness away and had a great time the rest of the day. OH, it felt so healthy.  I am pretty sure that is what healthy people do.  We did not wallow in the sadness or get stuck.  We took it out of the box, acknowledged it  and then we put it back in its box and went about the business of celebrating life.

All the ladies at the Grove Park Inn

All the ladies at the Grove Park Inn

Richard encouraged me to relax.  He is a pastor but this weekend he was just my brother.  He assured me that God did not need me to work so hard, to quit striving and breathe.  Debbie, my amazing sister-in-law,  keeps pushing us to dig a little deeper.  She loves seeing us growing and is a great cheerleader.  Susan, my sissy, has been a warrior my entire life.  She has stood up many times alone and forged ahead even when others (me) did not understand or approve.  This weekend I asked her to forgive me for judging her during those times.  She looked wrong to me, now she looks courageous, and I applaud her for fighting so hard to be healthy inside and out! 

I came home refreshed.  I came home feeling loved.  I came home ready for the next leg of the journey.  My sibs are my friends and my cheerleaders.  Healthy is hard work sometimes but the rewards are so worth it.

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I realize that as I get healthier emotionally I can laugh more at my issues.  In the past, I took everything so seriously, was so afraid for people to see the real me so I covered me up with fat.  What would they think if they really knew me?  I hid my deepest fears, feelings, pains and shame under layers of fat.  As my heart heals, the pain fades and the shame goes away, I risk and  let safe people in to see the real Ruthie.  Some things are not pretty,  scarred and still broken BUT I know that as I face my fears of rejection and pain, I become freer to be who I was always meant to be and to laugh.   The Bible says there is a time to laugh and a time to cry.  Laughter is good for my soul.

I do cardio several mornings a week with Mark, he is my gym brother.  He makes me laugh, he  aggravates me, he laughs at me and tells me I am ridiculous many times in an hour.  Talking and laughing makes the cardio hour go by really quick.  We talk about our week, our spouses, kids and ourselves (he tries to talk about sports and I can tell you that last about 10 seconds!).  One day I was talking about the way I saw myself in the past and he looked over at me and said, “You used to be a real head case didn’t you?”  I burst out laughing and said, “You have no idea!”  I cannot tell you how good it felt to be able to laugh at my past. 

Exposing who I was in the past and who I am now frees me to heal, love myself  and others.  Because I can laugh at myself I now will try new things or do things that I know I am not good at and look foolish  (box jumps–when I jump people can’t help but laugh–that will be another post).  

If I am your trainer, you know there is one thing I will never let you laugh at or make fun, that is your body fat.  Many times fat is covering up pain and I will not let people minimize their pain by making fun of their outward appearance.   For me dealing with the pain and healing, renews my spirit, gives me the energy to educate, retrain my body and mind.

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