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When I woke up this morning the weight of the world felt a little (mild version) heavy.  I could feel myself starting a list in my head and the list was not positive, a lot of the things I was thinking were true, just not the entire truth.   The Bible and The Secret say the say thing, “where ever you put your thoughts, there you will go.   There are negative things that are true, I acknowledge them and I am working on them, BUT I want to focus on the positive things in my life.

So I caught myself early in the spiral and said, “No, there is more to the story, what is the other side?”

So here is the other side, these are things I know:

I am glad there is a God and Love greater than myself. 
I have a family that loves me (husband, children and extended family)
I have amazing friends
I love my job.  I love the people I work with every day.
I live in a country that it is encouraged to express yourself
I am a work in progress and I am moving forward (slower some days, but
     moving just the same)
My tastes have changed to healthier foods, I like oatmeal with pumpkin    
      now and not only is it healthy, it really taste good to me.  I am not
     saying I don’t like a good hot french fry, cuz I do, but healthy is better for
     99% of the time. Okay, maybe 85% is more accurate, I am just telling the
     truth.
I have friends who keep pointing me towards healthier thinking and
     actions.
Everyday that I laugh I feel better.
Everyday that I choose to be positive I feel better.
I love to exercise
I love to move
I love to take deep breaths and smell the Fall air.
I ran/walked five miles in the woods Sunday with 350 other people who
     wanted to be outside and trying to be healthier.  I had friends running
     with me and family cheering me on.  (that is the best thing ever!)
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Battle Creek Running Friends

 
I am still growing and moving.
It is a new day with new possibilities.
I like the positive truth way more than where I was headed first thing this
     morning.   My list could be longer, but I must run to work!
 
 Tell me something you know to be true and positive for you today.
 

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This past weekend I went to my sister, Susan’s for her son, Eldridge’s graduation.Eldridge, Kayla and Candy at the Grove Park Inn  It was really great, my three brothers and my sister were all together for parts of the weekend.  My little brother, John, got engaged so we also celebrated for him and Denise.

My sister has an amazing deck that we sat at most of the time when we were at the house.  In the mornings, before the kids got up, I sat outside with my brother, Richard and Susan.  We talked about family stuff.  It really helped me to be able to talk with people who knew where I have come from and where I wanted to go.  The best part is that we are all trying to get emotionally healthy.  We are all fighting hard to slay the dragons that have won in the past.  My heart was so overwhelmed with love for them, they filled my love tanks to over flowing. 

I lived in depression for 22 years.  Occasionally, I poked my head out, but for the most part, I was depressed and sad.  I was stuck in my sadness.  When I was with my sibs this weekend we talked about some very sad things BUT the difference was that after we talked about them, laughed a little about them, I cried a little about them, we put the sadness away and had a great time the rest of the day. OH, it felt so healthy.  I am pretty sure that is what healthy people do.  We did not wallow in the sadness or get stuck.  We took it out of the box, acknowledged it  and then we put it back in its box and went about the business of celebrating life.

All the ladies at the Grove Park Inn

All the ladies at the Grove Park Inn

Richard encouraged me to relax.  He is a pastor but this weekend he was just my brother.  He assured me that God did not need me to work so hard, to quit striving and breathe.  Debbie, my amazing sister-in-law,  keeps pushing us to dig a little deeper.  She loves seeing us growing and is a great cheerleader.  Susan, my sissy, has been a warrior my entire life.  She has stood up many times alone and forged ahead even when others (me) did not understand or approve.  This weekend I asked her to forgive me for judging her during those times.  She looked wrong to me, now she looks courageous, and I applaud her for fighting so hard to be healthy inside and out! 

I came home refreshed.  I came home feeling loved.  I came home ready for the next leg of the journey.  My sibs are my friends and my cheerleaders.  Healthy is hard work sometimes but the rewards are so worth it.

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